Have you ever done something that is not right for you for so long that you finally just hit a wall and say "I'M DONE" (mentally, at least)? It happened today. I've been trying to fit myself into a mold that isn't meant for me. It's not fair to myself or those closest to me for me to continue on this path. I have an amazing life. Less this one thing that bothers me day in and day out so much.
Unfortunately, I can't get into too much detail right now. One day I'll fill you all in. I want to share how I feel right now and maybe pass along some wisdom to others. Maybe someone will read this who needs an extra push to make a change. Maybe someone just needs to know that they aren't the only one who feels this way about something in their life. Maybe this is a pep talk to myself.
Here's what I say. Don't put so much value in what other people think. No one knows the walk you are on or the path you've made for yourself in your life. Do be hard on yourself in terms of setting goals and achieving things that matter to you, but don't set the bar too high and then refuse to readjust when needed.
Learn to be nice to yourself and to let yourself be happy. Not everything needs to be perfect. No one is perfect and no situation or part of life will be perfect. You will learn to love the imperfect.
Be your own person. Make sure you make yourself happy. Yes, it is nice to take into consideration the people closest to you, but really at the end of the day you have to deal with your own mind and your own happiness. Those people want you to be happy too, so don't pressure yourself so much on their behalf.
You really can't be happy with someone else unless you're happy with yourself.